Monday, March 24, 2008

The End of an Era!

I didn't know it, but tonight was the end of an Era.

For the first time (EVER!), my babies are asleep in their cribs. Well, their toddler beds. We just converted them today. There was lots of excitement when we showed them to Austin and Logan. We made a big deal out going night-night in them, and Evan even showed them "how" you sleep in it. So tonight at bedtime we just decided to go ahead and try to get them to sleep in their own beds, in their own room.

You see, Austin and Logan slept in a makeshift sleep area next to their foster parents. Then, on our extended pick-up trip (and at 4 different hotels), I either had them in the bed with me or in a twin bed next to ours.

So, when we came home, we put a twin mattress next to our bed for them. It started out with them sleeping "down there" until they started getting really scared in the middle of the night. Hence, ever since about mid-summer, we've all just been co-sleeping.

sigh

Until tonight. They're in their cribs. Poor Mommy. I miss them already. After not having them with me for so long, it sure was nice going to sleep and rubbing a soft, tiny little hand or foot. Or feeling one of them throw his arm or leg around me in the middle of the night. And when they cried or called out. I was right there. Instantly. No doubt, Gary and I both enjoyed meeting their needs - being there for them. Knowing that our presence gave them comfort.

sigh

Why the change? For them, really. It's time. They need to learn to fall asleep on their own, they need their own space.

We are fast approaching two years old. And we'll need to start potty training sometime. Which means we'll need to cut out the naptime and the nighttime bottles, too.

It's time to start "change."

At this point, I know my boys feel safe and secure. I know they feel loved. Bringing them home at 14 months old did present itself some different challenges. We did and have done what we considered best for our children. And we'll continue making good decisions that benefit and promote their healthy emotional well-being.

Letting go is hard.

sigh

11 comments:

Guatemama said...

Awwww! Congrats on getting them to sleep in their beds but I know it is very bittersweet. I bet you had a hard time sleeping without them last night.
Tracy

Heidi said...

That would be very hard! That is good though that they are moving into their own beds and I am sure they know you are still there for them. It is hard to see them grow up though!

I love the Happy Birthday sequence of pictures! That is so funny!

Bobbi said...

You know, they do say this stuff is harder on us than them. I believe that!

I do believe that you did and are doing what is best for them and you.

You are so right, letting go is so hard. Hope you could sleep!!!

Katie said...

It is hard but its sounds like you are doing the right thing !!

ggaggle said...

Oh my goodness! They are getting to be big guys!

....You better not get them potty trained before Emerson or I might just cry!!!!!!

Lou said...

I know that was hard, but I do agree that's what's best for them...... I wish we could freeze all our babies just for a while.... Essie should be around 14 mths. when she comes home, and I'm sure I'll have lots of questions for you!

Katie said...

Austin and Logan have been tagged by A&B :)

Anne said...

What a big step having them sleep in their own beds. I agree it is hard but so much better for them if they learn to sleep on their own now (trust me, we had to break a 3 year old from sleeping on our bed and it wasn't easy on anyone!).

I love the pictures sequence with the signs for Nonnie!! The boys look so adorable in their Easter outfits.

Our Family of 5 said...

awwwww! Isn't funny how it's sometimes harder on us then it is them...the change that is! I wanted Sophia to come home and snuggle with me in bed, but she had other plans. She went right to her crib and then twin bed and now sleeps in the bottom bunk. As much as I wanted her to snuggle, she is so independent and loves to be in her own bed =)

Beth said...

What a big milestone... for everyone. Your boys are so loved, and they clearly know it. You have done such a great job of following their lead, and they are ready. How exciting... even when the heartstrings are being pulled.

Gwen, Jenny, & Mia said...

WOW!!! What a big change! I can't believe they did it on their own. I am so happy for you - to not have to struggle with it. I hope Mia is that easy, but somehow I don't think she is going to be.

Don't be sad I am sure they will "sneak" into your room sometimes and cuddle in the mornings.